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Current Music:Over, Sugarcult
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Subject:I'm such a dumb bitch.
Time:05:30 pm
Current Mood:gloomygloomy
Everybody’s watching you
Breathing in your every move
Look around when the world is empty
Look around if you’re guilty

Everybody’s after you
I wait in line to touch you
Look around if you ever miss me
Look around because it kills me

It’s over
There’s nothing you can do
There’s nothing you can say
To keep me here
It’s over
You say we’re just friends
Well play and pretend to keep me here

Every night I lay in bed
I think about the things you said
Look around, I’m the one, your only
Look around it still kills me...

-over, sugarcult
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Current Music:New, No Doubt
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Subject:Like a fresh battery, I'm energized by you...
Time:02:27 am
Current Mood:confusedconfused
An update:

*Countdown time...
-Quietdrive: 1 day.
-4th of July (friends + parties + fireworks = goooood times!): 2 days.
-Warped!: 23 days... I'm soooo excited.
-Anna's 21st: 25 days, what a day that is gonna be, holy shit, lol...

So...

I spent the afternoon doing random shit around the house (again, woo-hoo) and then went running around with Miss. Anna, which was quite fun... lol except for our "encounters" that is. Oh well, what can you do. But, guess what? I got a swimsuit that fucking fits (and some cute sandals that match...oooh...)! That made me a happy girl in itself, despite the fact that I don't really enjoy the whole trying the suits on thing... (and I did something stupid that I shouldn't have, which was no good either) but I think most girls go through that... or at least I hope they do. Damn my self-conscious self.

Then tonight, I saw Spiderman 2... damn man.
I did enjoy parts of it, but hell it seemed long. Too long for ADD me, lol.

I also talked to Mr. Chris tonight... after a few days of not hearing from the boy I decided to give him a ring (stupid of me? perhaps... but I'm an impatient bitch, what can i say? lol) Anyway, I guess the tour is really crazy, but things are going well... which was good to hear :-) I got to hear all kinds of wild and crazy stories, which as always was very... interesting, lol.

Hmm... what else is up in my exciting life that is worth sharing...?

Nothing much really, that I can think of right now at least.

Oh. Except...

I'm free from school for another week! Yay!

That's all folks.
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Current Music:Do You Believe Me?, The Juliana Theory
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Subject:You're not supposed to be my enemy...
Time:02:41 am
Current Mood:awakeawake
Sit down pancakes!
Hahaha, just finished watching Wrongfully Accused on tv... a wonderfully strange movie, I must say. Entertaining enough for me, but I suppose that doesn't say much. Hmmm.
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Current Music:Time is Running Out, Muse
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Subject:I think I'm drowning, asphyxiated...
Time:01:38 am
Current Mood:stressedstressed
I think I'm about to crawl out of my skin.
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Subject:Yay!
Time:02:28 am
Ashley is home!
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Current Music:City of Angels, The Distillers (PS: I HEART Brody's voice)
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Subject:It's warmer in hell so down we go...
Time:02:48 am
Current Mood:hungryhungry
"If you stalked me, it would be super!"
-Chris

I swear... I have never met a funnier fucking kid in my life.
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Current Music:Learning How to Smile, Everclear
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Subject:I'm just learning how to smile...
Time:01:33 am
Current Mood:restlessrestless
Yes I know there ain’t no finish line
I know this never ends
But I’m just learning how to fall
Climb back up again
I know there is nothing perfect
I know there is nothing new
We are just learning how to live together
Me and you
You know I live for the day

When you say ’BABY LET'S JUST RUN AWAY'...

-Everclear
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Current Music:Wave Goodbye, Chris Cornell
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Subject:Try to stand up strong and brave, when all you want to do is lay down and die...
Time:01:05 am
Current Mood:crushedcrushed
Laura leaves in four hours for North Carolina.
I had no idea until tonight after graduation.
I thought I had more time with her... and now she's leaving at five.
It wasn't supposed to be like this.
Not only am I losing one of the best friends I have ever had... I'm losing a sister, and my soul mate.
I feel dead inside.
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Current Music:Anthem Of Our Dying Day, SOTY
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Subject:The stars will cry, the blackest tears tonight...
Time:02:27 am
Current Mood:sadsad
what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and now the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, well please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy...

take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

i'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you.

-PROMISE, MATCHBOOK ROMANCE


It's the beginning of a very bittersweet day...
Today, my baby brother graduates highschool. It's so great, yet incredibly scary to me. I am so happy for him, but it means he's going to be leaving me soon... actually, both him and my Laura are leaving. I'm losing a brother and a sister in a matter of months (in Laura's case, a month or so)... and I hate the idea of that. I know they aren't dying or anything, but still... it's tearing at my heartstrings quite a bit. I guess in a way, it's starting to feel like things are slowly unraveling, and one by one, I'm losing everyone I've truly loved (in one way or another).
Perhaps I'm a pessimist for this, but as much as I want to tell them things like "goodluck" or "go, be happy... i want what's best for you" and sincerely mean it, I feel as if I can't. It's terribly selfish of me, but I'm scared. Terrified really, to be honest with you... I just don't think I could bear going through another bout of heartache at this point.
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Current Music:Give it Up, Pepper
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Subject:Baby get on your knees...
Time:02:21 am
Current Mood:tiredtired
Just returned from a midnight showing of The Breakfast Club in Uptown... good times, good times. There were an assload of people there including some of my bro's buddies... along with his GF Miss Michelle (what a fucking sweetheart <3... I heart her to death). All in all it was quite crazy.

Tomorrow should be pretty damn crazy as well.

I think I have sufficiently overbooked myself, and I might just go insane from trying to do too much all at once... but oh well. The line up includes: two grad parties, job hunting, house cleaning, a trip to a mall (not my idea of a good time normally, but I love the girl I'm taking there to pieces), a movie to watch-- and a paper thing to write, followed by a possible outing to the block party on Grand or something... Jeebus. See, to all of you normal folks out there, this may sound all fine and dandy... but I've been so damn run down lately it's insane. My bed is my bestest buddy... so... in conclusion on the subject... hopefully all will go well and I wont die.

Wish me luck.
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